What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Hello, my friends :D Its been so long since I last updated! It's April already. Fuck, this year is passing too fast!! There's been lots of ups and downs the past few months. School's been pretty much the same... unbearable and all. Hate waking up early and attending useless lectures, and I've been falling sick a lot. In fact, i'm having a flu and a bad cough now ): Damn the fact that school is so ANAL this year, we have to get an MC before skipping school. Like WTF? And my teachers this year are so strict as compared to last year! Although my math teacher this year is hot, heheh.

The start of the year was really terrible, I was PMS-y every single day, but I think its getting better now. Thanks to my wonderful friends, I can bitch or laugh off my frustrations. HAHA! The class is much smaller this year and the girls hang out together. During breaks, we head off to study, so hardworking eh! And this year, I eat less cause Joyce and Geri are almost anorexic, really. All they eat is BREAD. HAHA. Yeah, and school's been more bearable cause there's training to look foward to. I didn't think I would be saying this but training the past few months was actually fun, with new juniors and all. :D

At the start of this year, there was MSA and recently, block test 1. My MSA was like, totally screwed with straight Us haha. Thank goodness my block test improved a little although I didn't have time to study much. My results still suck though, its damn worrying actually. Been so lazy and distracted the past few months, blame it on my new fetish for ____. HAHA. Anyway, every day after school/training I would come home to eat, watch american idol(kris allen!), watch videos off youtube(for hours!!), laze around and then sleep. I suck, really. ):

Some photos!

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Last week was the start of the table tennis comps which ended yesterday. Yes, it ended in a week. I think it was one of the best weeks of JC though :D Plus, I got to eat island creamery 3 times! Hahaha. Anyway, we had TJC, YJC and NYJC in our group and yeah, we got eliminated after losing to TJC and NYJC. Its disappointing how fast it ended, although everyone tried their best. Its ironic that although we trained so much harder this year, we managed to get into Top 4 last year but not this year. Its been exactly 10 years since I started playing table tennis in Primary 3, and I'll always remember the good times(bitching!, imba doubles, winning sports school, bonding time...) and the bad times (losing, punishments, late nights, PT!). Now the need to train is suddenly gone, so the feeling's really weird, like some sort of emptiness. ): I bet i'm going to get withdrawal symptoms soon and gain weight like crazy.

SATT kicks ass <3 Its stuff like this that I'll miss. PHOTOS from last week!

Omg Ivy is damn hideous right. Hahaha. LESBO LESBO LESBO!! We went for the Life Concert which was pretty GOOD but was damn hilarious. Laughed like crazy over the most retarded things. And by the way, the ban mian at Potong Pasir is damn yummy! :D Shit man I have a craving for ban mian, hokkien mee, lor mee and char kuay tiao recently. Unhealthy much.

SIGH. I REALLY NEED TO START STUDYING SOON AHHHH. The more free I am, the more I slack. A'levels ruin my life. I feel damn stupid. School's boring, I need an eye candy to stalk in school so that life would be more interesting. Eh actually I found one, but its a secret for now!!! Okay bimbotic -.- HAHAHA! I need study dates! Although 98% of the time it ends up being totally unproductive. Even studying with regina in the library cannot make it lah. ): Study date anyone? Kincheng?? :D

David archuleta is in Singapore. Omg love his voice and he's cute, so damn you if you don't think so! :)

I'm off to sleep now. -whine whine whine-

Nanyang's 2004 newsletter had a section introducing new teachers to the school, and I spotted this,

Wait, WHAT!? Is that the same Mrs Chan Yam Yoke from SAJC? Oh my gosh, no way hahahah. And I thought she kinda hated girls. Or maybe thats why.

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Yup, its only January, and i'm already feeling kinda depressed. Haha. Maybe its the new year blues, or maybe im just dreading school, or feeling the stress from the upcoming exams in just a few weeks, or maybe its just... everything. My mind's in quite a mess, haha.

Finally did SOME work today, with my radio on! Its been so long since I've listened to the radio while doing work, it feels kinda good. Hahaha. My new favourite song's Love Story by Taylor Swift! I've not had enough of the holidays! I mean, who has? I'm not done with slacking yet. Anyway, I have a feeling i'm going to regret not studying much during holidays because i'm damn backlogged with my work. Damn screwed. Really need a boost of motivation, and any help is appreciated! :D

[Edit] Watched Bedtime Stories, was hilarious! And.... Twilight!! FINALLY. After practically everyone watched it, I couldnt resist. It was quite good!! Although the acting's not that great, there were lots of eyecandy :D :D

Vampires are the new sexy.

Ehhh, I think the guy who acts Jacob is quite cute too!!! :D

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Ahhh, I really hate myself sometimes! 2009's going to just zoom by, and January is going to be a busy month, so wish me luck!

Here I am, everyday,
Since you said, you'd come again,
But it's not fair, cause you're not here,
I wait in vain, but nothing has changed.

I'm a flower, soaking in the rain,
If I could wish one thing, I'd hear you call my name. 
So when will I see your face again. 

Hello, thought I'll blog today cause its the last day of 2008!!! :D

Went out with kincheng yesterday for 'study date', which was unproductive, needless to say. Ate burger king which was quite horrible. People-watched, and laughed at tons of funny looking people. Then, we went to eat at subway!! I feel fat, dang it. Been eating sooo much, i'm going to be overweight! What if I'm forced to go TAF club next year. ):

Photos!

We were talking about prospective careers, and thinking of Christian names for ourselves. So, kincheng's called Stacy and i'm Ashley. Hahaha what the hell, they're not very ideal, we know. Yup, there weren't any movies so we went to the arcarde again and spent $10 playing retarded games :D  Concluded that I could be an assassin/shooter, while kincheng could be a dancer, since we don't know what job to get in the future! Oh, and our new goal is to study overseas together (: It'll be tough, but good luck to us.

And 413's class gathering's this week too, can't wait! :D

If you knew, would you have cared?

Been thinking a lot this holidays. Actually, I've been thinking a lot more than usual since JC began at the start of the year. So anyway, yesterday I was in my 'thinking-mood' again, and I was getting quite depressed cause I realised I'm actually confused and unsure about many things. I was sorting out my old stuff, and I thought about my past, present and future and how so many good memories are fading away, coming back to me as mere bits and pieces now. Reached a conclusion that my life is either going down-hill, or reaching a standstill. I shouldnt be thinking so much, because whatever happened in the past cannot be changed, no matter how hard I think about it. Retarded, really. I should be studying!! Heh. Yup, can't wait for JC to end! Got lots of things to accomplish after that. (:

Off to cut my hair la. I think im going craaaaazy. And by the way, David archuleta's new music video is out. Check it out!

Quite cute :D

Hi, its been quite a long while since I last blogged!  Shall make a quick post.

Its December - The holidays!! Its been pretty much BORING. Spent the holiday so far sleeping, relaxing, playing psp, eating and watching tons of movies online, and enjoyed it :D :D :D I think I've exhausted almost all the rom-coms ever made. HAHA, movie marathon is right. It sounds weird, but I actually learnt a few things from the movies I watched! ;D  I DREAD the new year so much! I would rather stay at home all day and feel bored, than go to school to attend useless lessons, not to mention study for the upcoming Alevels ):

Hmm... let's see. Took lots of photos this holiday, but lazy to upload! Shall blog about the 'study date' with kincheng just last week. Met kincheng at KAP to study, but after just 5mins, we decided to go orchard to meet kincheng's -ahem- Aussie friend. :D

Us at Far East!

Watched The Day the Earth Stood Still, or rather "The Day the Earth Died" as kincheng says.

Keanu Reeves is HOTTTTT!

Attempt to look cool in shades, but ended up looking like a bug/mosquito ):

 
Played some dancing game at cathay arcade. Was retarded but fun much (:

I hate kincheng la, she's such a bad influence!! I don't recall ever having a productive study session with her! :D We are always distracted by some thing or another.

Just got back yesterday from a cruise, Legend of the Seas, which was a BLAAAAST. Had lots of fun, but im damn tired from sleeping at 3am (night activities!!) and waking up at 6am for three days in a row. :D

The ship's so pretty! Would love to go for another cruise next year or so although its damn unhealthy cause there's actually nothing much to do on a cruise, except EAT EAT EAT. And its always fattening food like pizza, steak and pasta. Shucks. I'm damn fat now! Just when I thought holidays would be a good time to exercise and lose weight! I need to exercise desperately. I should go swimming. The pools' outside, so dont be lazy!

AHHH, sadly, i'm back to the monotony of Singapore life now. ):

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Some new photos of Button!

Button's so cuuuute! <33!

Its 2 days to Christmas, which is my favourite time of the year. Haha, Its such a happy and joyful season and its one of the few festivals my family celebrates. So MERRY CHRISTMAS! (in advance)

January is coming sooooon. Time really flies. There's gna be exams on the first week, which sucks so bad. I'm having ZERO motivation right now and I really have to start studying again soon if not i'll regret it as usual. Got to keep my hands off the computer and stop wasting time on Youtube!! So sian. ): 

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do, I still feel you here 'till the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

:D